A Wondrous Universe

Sometimes life is painful to the heart.  But this pain passes, almost.  Maybe with time it will completely pass.  I don't know.  Hope tells me it will.  

Sad because My heart is sad because My mind plans and sees beautiful outcomes  And for a time I can forget, Reintegrate my feelings But the sting is still there But I can tune back in to love A sad sort-of love Love none-the-less

A man still wishes And she calls But she may not be as sweet as the dew that drops from the honeysuckle  It leaves a man waiting and wanting for something better Therefore, he must be good to himself  Until the time is right When the woman of his dreams comes sauntering in

I dreamed I walked into a room and everyone yelled my name, "Karl!"  It felt really nice.

A man on a bench Softly strumming the guitar Brings me joy

I sit here in the grass  In the park Under tree Speak to me Tree says Do you best Take a rest It'll be just fine Unwind Unwind Trust in yourself and no one else It'll be alright You can trust in yourself It'll be alright It'll be alright 

I was happy with you When we were together I wanted us To ride tandem bikes Your cute face Pressed against mine, smiling I wonder if you'll ever be mine Again I hope so.

Today I walked in the woods with some friends.  We ate and talked together.  

I really miss chocolate sometimes, especially after meals.  The stash in the house has been gone for sometime.  I miss other things too.

Expectations.  In some sense they can serve you well, in others they do not.  It's best for me to maintain myself and if others want to join in then that's great.  

Today  is a hot day, 99 degrees here in Lawrence, Kansas.  I finally fixed my van door; the handle was loose.  Free time on a holiday are good for these things.  I saw some friends from the old neighborhood, and a friend, with her husband and kid, that I work with at the bus depot at Diary Queen.  I went to the dog park too with Goliath.  There were some beautiful women walking down the road, one in a tight pink body suit.   Tomorrow I have on the schedule a flight lesson.  But today is a relaxing day and O' Malley is spending some time outside of my room.  The house cat is spending some time in my room.  The house cat Ben often comes to my door and hangs out, meowing outside of it.  So in the free time today I opened for him.  In comes one, out goes another.   I met a woman yesterday picking up trash.   She was friendly and talked to me.  I often feel that a little friendliness can go a long way. ...

Life can be sad.  Life teaches you to be more the way you are in actuality, more connected.  Whenever I feel a disconnect I feel sad.  I'll just feel sad for however long until I feel reconnected.