Sentiment

It has been over a month since I last wrote.  I believe my last entry was about suicide.  I talked about genus and the crazy things genus sometimes does, like cutting off ears and killing itself.  Sometimes I do still feel great sadness and I cry.  

Running helps me to shift my vibration.  I do not run a lot but I run each day for a little bit.  Just that little bit helps.  

I lost a friend.  I chose this.  It is quite baby-like, really, but sometimes I have to honor my inner-child and just be a baby.  

Sometimes I go down the path of least resistance and then things become easier and I do not have to think so much about things.  There is magic in the world if you open your heart and allow for it.  

p.s.  All things are not lost forever- only for the moment until we can fully heal; maybe not even fully healed, but healed enough for acceptance.  Right now I am doing my best to move forward, honor my heart and feelings, grieve, let go and love, despite the hurt.


  

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